Not Sleeping

There are only a few things in this world that bug me as much as (or more than) not being able to sleep at night. This has been something I have struggled with most of my adult life.

I am exhausted as ever but as soon as I lay down in bed all I can think about is the endless list of things I need to do/haven't done/should do the next day. Falling asleep is usually the hardest part, but staying asleep is also pretty hard, especially now.

I have been having crazy dreams/nightmares that wake me up and bother me. Can't really shake some of them the next day. I usually have strange dreams, but pregnancy has shifted my wacko brain into a whole new realm of weird!

On a more positive note. I am so thrilled it is almost October. I am looking forward to the weather changing a bit, making Tiny a Halloween costume and finding out if this baby is a girl or a boy!

Diploma

I have 1 class standing between me and my diploma. I have already hit the 120 credits that you need to graduate but failed to ever take a FRESHMAN science class, that happens to be one of the most difficult science classes I have ever faced!

I need to have it complete by Thanksgiving...

Today I completed the 13th lesson of 30... I have 1 exam done and have 3 more to go. This is going to make me or break me. I gotta find the motivation and do this! Thankfully today I just did 1 lesson... thats more than I have done since May!

My ever changing belly....

I may regret posting these pictures... but I can no longer deny that my stomach is getting bigger. These pictures are not the most attractive of me, it would help if I put make up on and did my hair but can't ask too much of me right now. I just found this picture in the blue sweater today and was shocked at how much my stomach has changed since May! Oh boy...

I am starting to feel a bit better, although I still feel sick most of the time. I had it set in my mind that I would be feeling all better by Dan's birthday on Friday because that was my 14 (or 15 week mark depending on which due date you go by)... but I was so wrong, Dan's birthday was one of my worst days so far, but I am hoping I keep improving from here on out!

Happy Birthday Dan!!

Yesterday was Dan's 23rd birthday! We went to dinner with my family to celebrate! I made him a cake, but we never got a chance to put candles on it because some how I went to bed early and Dan hacked into the cake in the middle of the night!? Oh well!

Tiny is 5 months today. We weighed him this morning and he is a stinking 16 1/2 pound pug!!! His greatest accomplishment this past month is that he has mastered the command "sit"!!! We love him, so we can't help but talk about him a lot. We took him swimming today and I can't tell you how funny he is when he swims... He thinks he is in a giant drinking bowl and that he should be drinking the water while swimming!

Saturday Fun

I wish I had taken pictures but my tired self didn't remove camera from purse (oh but I stole this one that Romi took of Brindy and I)! I had so much fun going to Brindy's baby shower! She is having a little boy in a few weeks! I was so happy I got to see some of my old friends there!
After that I headed over to Christina and Charlies to hang out. The boys had gone to a gun show and got back and played games for awhile while Christina and I talked. Christina and I were lucky enough to get to go over to Lonna and Shane's to meet their new baby Jaxon!

I couldn't believe how tiny he seemed! 8 pounds seems so small and I can't imagine what a little 5 or 6 pound baby would look like. I was pretty nervous holding him (I don't know if I have ever held a baby that young) but he just lay there being cute! Lonna and Shane are such good parents!

To say the least I was exhausted by the end of the night. Dan and I got home and we watched Man vs. Food together and then I zonked out on the couch... he came to wake me up to move to bed.... He startled me and I started saying things that weren't words... Had so much fun that I couldn't even get out of bed this morning on time... :) oh boy!

Dan loves Guns

Dan at the shooting range! Boy loves guns... I don't love guns, but I did alright.

My target... I think I hit it? We had a lot of fun thou!

I'd do everything the same!

I saw this post secret posted on a friends blog tonight and it quickly led me over to Post Secret to check it out on the Sunday secrets. Reading it gave me chills and made me tear up. This is exactly how I feel about Daniel. I have made a world of mistakes, but I wouldn't change a thing. I feel so blessed to have him and know that he is going to be such a wonderful father!

Baby's Heartbeat

I was anxious for this mornings appointment. I knew that there was a possibility that we wouldn't hear the heartbeat as it could have been too early or what not. I let my doctor know about my anxiety and I am thankful I have such a wonderfully calm and patient doctor. It didn't take much work for him to find the baby's heartbeat and it was such a beautiful noise. It was reassuring and put me at ease.

Quilt Update

Well I finished the top... The top stops at the big white boarder... its just lying on top of the red backing right now. It sure does look wrinkly. The red backing is minky and sooo soft. I can't wait to finish it, but it will be on hold for awhile till I get all the tools to put the batting in the middle and pin it.