One blessing that come with trials is they amplify how wonderful our blessings actually are. So this is to remind myself that despite the pain we have experienced there are still things to be so grateful for!
I am grateful for everything that lead us to getting Ava into school and therapy, including her Autism diagnosis. I won't lie, there are still days I try to ignore/convince myself that she does not have autism... I still haven't fully come to terms with it, however I am so grateful for her teachers and therapists and the incredible change we have seen in her! It is such a miracle to be able to hear Ava say things, ask questions, make friends, follow directions!
I'm grateful that despite the pain that 3 years of infertility have brought, I can still find joy in being a mom of 1. I enjoy my time with Ava, all of it. She is a miracle and I know what a rare and precious gift she is! Infertility has shown me to really not worry about the little things with her. If she doesn't want to eat a vegetable at dinner or wants to wear solely dress up clothes for a week... that's just fine.
I'm grateful that if we ever are able to have a second child that Ava will be able to actually understand and be excited about having a baby brother or sister. As time goes on I can see great advantages in having 5+ year age difference rather than my original plan of having 3 children in 4 years.
