Wednesday, January 30, 2008

A De-Caffinated Life


That right their, that little drawing, its been a friend to me for the past 8 years I would guess. I have never in that time quite drinking it. I have transitioned of its origin (regular to diet) but never have I stopped.

Well its been 2 weeks now and I have not been able to drink a single carbonated beverage due to the medication I am on (it makes it taste like rusted metal burning my thoat).

I kind of miss caffeine, but in general, I feel better. Bonus, I drink water now!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

I HATE SNOW


I cannot tell you how much I hate the COLD, SNOW AND ICE! When the sky is blue, I have less anxiety, less stress, clear thoughts, and no repressed rage. When it starts to get cloudy, I worry... when little flakes start to fall I start to have little panic attacks in my brain, and when the down pour of snow happens, I completely freak out. I stress about walking in the snow, staying warm while I walk in the snow, falling on the ice and most importantly, myself or Daniel getting in some fatal accident because of SNOW!

I have come to the conclusion that I am not allowed to drive in the snow... its either A) my car does not have suitable tires to drive on snow and ice or B) I am incapable of keeping control of my car on snow and ice. I know which one it probably is so I just don't drive in the snow!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Off to work I go

So I decided even thou my eyes are shot to hell and I feel like crap... I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK! I have been out for almost a week and a half and am doing a lot better. I have to stop being a baby and get out of my house. TONS OF PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY BLIND AND THEY GO TO WORK! I am just having a tough time adjusting to my new vision impairment. Driving is not a possibility and walking on the ice makes me look like a clown cause I can't see which spots actually have ice or are just the ghost image of what I am really seeing. BLAH!

So goal is go get a bus pass... and force myself to work!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Medical Mysteries are fun and games!

So after weeks of horrible migraine headaches and neck pain, and numerous doctors telling me that I am A) too stressed B) dehydrated and C) developing migraines... I was at a loss for words. We went to the ER two Wednesday's ago and they sent us home with pain meds (which didn't help the pain) and a note saying that they didn't believe anything serious was causing my pain. So basically I am a stressed out dehydrated girl developing migraines for the first time in her life. All of which still may be true.

I had suffered through Christmas break with migraines and a car wreck but then all of a sudden about a week ago, I got double vision! Ever crossed your eyes and have your parents tell you that if you do that too much it will get stuck... well mine got stuck around age 21! I was having a fit. That was the final straw... that was the "something must be really wrong here." Dan's mom called their eye doctor and he talked to me on Sunday and got me to come into his office the next morning. After running a bunch of tests and looking at my eyes he told me that my optic nerves were swollen and that I most likely had something called "Idiopathic Intercranial Hypertension" aka a Pseudotumor. Ever heard of it? No? Neither had I.

Well a million doctor's later, a spinal tap and a nice hour and a half MRI tell me that yep I have Idiopathic Intercranial Hypertension. Basically my body is behaving as if I have a brain tumor but their is no tumor their, silly body, quit trying to kill me, its not a tumor!!

I am exhausted, and thankfully after almost a full week I can say my vision is improving, my taste buds are ruined due to the medication and diet coke taste like battery acid, and I will soon be on the road to better health.

This week my plans are to: go back to work, go back to school, and not lose my eye sight!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Crappy New Year

Started the year off with a rather messy accident trying to drive back up to Utah and now I have been in and out of doctors offices and the hospital due to migraine, neck and head pain, blurred and double vision. It has been rather grand I must say. Not~