Dan and I were trying to remember when we first said "I love you!" He said it first and it was early early in the morning one morning and I remember I didn't say it back. I remember that I wanted it to just come out of my mouth naturally and not in response to him saying it like I was forced... I am not sure why I thought that but I did. He was not upset at all that I didn't say it but later that week while walking into the South Jordan, Utah walmart (of all places) Dan said something and I started laughing so hard and just said it to him there.
Anyway I was a little surprised that it took some mental prying on our part to remember lol. I wanted to write it down so I don't forget.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Glowing pink photos of children?
When I saw this picture of Matt and Dan it reminded me of this picture of Brett and I...
Sunday, June 15, 2008
1 year in the Making
So its almost been 1 year since I met Dan. Last summer was one of the lowest points of my life. Dan met me at the same time I was at the downward motion of hitting rock bottom.
I met Daniel on the fourth of July. I could have been many places that night. That day alone I had wandered from friend to friend and group to group never finding much solace other than in the presence of my dear friend Allyson. Meeting Dan when I did was not planned and had it not been for other events prior that had occurred that week and even that day I don't think it would have ever happened!
Anyway to say the least I met this wonderful, young, handsome, tall guy that I found to be cute and charming yet due to the unforeseen depressive attitudes of the summer of 2007 I didn't pick up on his intentions and when he finally told me flat out what he wanted I still kinda kept him at an arms length and kept playing the woe is me song in my head.
Thanks to a sane and surprisingly logical friend, Brent Jr., I took the chance on contacting Dan after a small hiatus in communication due to a broken phone and fear. I cowardly text messaged Dan late mid august. Not expecting much in return I just texted him something random that I hoped maybe he would remember me. In response, he had deleted my phone number (because I stopped talking to him) and didn't know who exactly I was. I simply wrote back the word "nevermind" and decided that was it I tried and failed. I was not upset or mad at him for not remembering or for having deleted me... I just figured it was not meant to be.
Due to Daniel's personality he put the pieces together quickly and figured out who I was without any help from me. Finally I responded and it is all history now... We spent the next 3 weeks talking all the time but it was not till September 25th that I finally agreed to go out with him. He had been asking me out for the entire month. Never in my life had I had someone who truly wanted to be around me like that. Even past boyfriends were not like that.
Our first date was "not a date" at least thats what I kept telling myself. I went over to his home in Orem and later we went to Los Hermanos and then came back to his house to watch some Arrested Development that I had brought with me. Our date ended abruptly when my ex-whatever he was called to tell me about my other ex-whatever he was. I got flustered and left. I really wish I had not left that night. But I guess the ending of this story is not a tragic one...
On our second date I told him every tragic thing that I could think of and about all the horrid guys I had dated. Keep in mind the depressive attitude I was trying to get out of at the time but was still in... I sound like a psycho. In my head however I figured, I better run him off now because he will be like everyone else and let me down and it will end.
All he said when I was done talking for what seemed like 3 hours straight was "I am glad you told me because it helps me know that I need to earn your trust and go slow." It was so sweet and I couldn't stand it.
On our third date I met his parents. I remember thinking... "this is taking it slow?"
I kissed him within the first week of our first date. I took charge on that one and drove up to a park called Big Springs. Its one of my favorite hiking spots in Provo. We were listening to Elliott Smith and I told him I was "going to be brave." The thought going through my head was, I am not kissing another jerk... He has to be the last person I kiss. Must have been a charm or something.
He told me he loved me first. I remember the moment, not the day. I can't remember if I said it back even. I just know when he said it, he actually meant it.
How we got engaged a little more than a month later, I have no idea, I guess due to all the previous events! We started talking about marriage in October and I was like holy moly ok but we must be crazy! We said that we would get engaged in December and married in May. Well we got engaged on Halloween and are getting married June 28th.
I am so thankful for the way things have turned out for us. I am thankful that we don't have pushy parents that try and force us to do things their way. I knew getting married in December was way too soon for us and I am glad I listened to that prompting. I don't know how I would have managed the first month of marriage with my pseudotumor and health problems like they were.
So now on our honeymoon we will be celebrating lots of things:
1) Our Marriage
2) The end of our 8 month engagement!
3) My birthday
4) Our 1 year anniversary of knowing each other (and Independence Day)
It will be a great week and I can't wait till we are on our honeymoon and away from my general daily worries! I have realized with my wedding that it doesn't matter if I lose weight or not (because every bride wants to), it doesn't matter if everything appears to be perfect... All that matters is that I am committing my life and love to Daniel and he is committing his life and love to me!
I met Daniel on the fourth of July. I could have been many places that night. That day alone I had wandered from friend to friend and group to group never finding much solace other than in the presence of my dear friend Allyson. Meeting Dan when I did was not planned and had it not been for other events prior that had occurred that week and even that day I don't think it would have ever happened!
Anyway to say the least I met this wonderful, young, handsome, tall guy that I found to be cute and charming yet due to the unforeseen depressive attitudes of the summer of 2007 I didn't pick up on his intentions and when he finally told me flat out what he wanted I still kinda kept him at an arms length and kept playing the woe is me song in my head.
Thanks to a sane and surprisingly logical friend, Brent Jr., I took the chance on contacting Dan after a small hiatus in communication due to a broken phone and fear. I cowardly text messaged Dan late mid august. Not expecting much in return I just texted him something random that I hoped maybe he would remember me. In response, he had deleted my phone number (because I stopped talking to him) and didn't know who exactly I was. I simply wrote back the word "nevermind" and decided that was it I tried and failed. I was not upset or mad at him for not remembering or for having deleted me... I just figured it was not meant to be.
Due to Daniel's personality he put the pieces together quickly and figured out who I was without any help from me. Finally I responded and it is all history now... We spent the next 3 weeks talking all the time but it was not till September 25th that I finally agreed to go out with him. He had been asking me out for the entire month. Never in my life had I had someone who truly wanted to be around me like that. Even past boyfriends were not like that.
Our first date was "not a date" at least thats what I kept telling myself. I went over to his home in Orem and later we went to Los Hermanos and then came back to his house to watch some Arrested Development that I had brought with me. Our date ended abruptly when my ex-whatever he was called to tell me about my other ex-whatever he was. I got flustered and left. I really wish I had not left that night. But I guess the ending of this story is not a tragic one...
On our second date I told him every tragic thing that I could think of and about all the horrid guys I had dated. Keep in mind the depressive attitude I was trying to get out of at the time but was still in... I sound like a psycho. In my head however I figured, I better run him off now because he will be like everyone else and let me down and it will end.
All he said when I was done talking for what seemed like 3 hours straight was "I am glad you told me because it helps me know that I need to earn your trust and go slow." It was so sweet and I couldn't stand it.
On our third date I met his parents. I remember thinking... "this is taking it slow?"
I kissed him within the first week of our first date. I took charge on that one and drove up to a park called Big Springs. Its one of my favorite hiking spots in Provo. We were listening to Elliott Smith and I told him I was "going to be brave." The thought going through my head was, I am not kissing another jerk... He has to be the last person I kiss. Must have been a charm or something.
He told me he loved me first. I remember the moment, not the day. I can't remember if I said it back even. I just know when he said it, he actually meant it.
How we got engaged a little more than a month later, I have no idea, I guess due to all the previous events! We started talking about marriage in October and I was like holy moly ok but we must be crazy! We said that we would get engaged in December and married in May. Well we got engaged on Halloween and are getting married June 28th.
I am so thankful for the way things have turned out for us. I am thankful that we don't have pushy parents that try and force us to do things their way. I knew getting married in December was way too soon for us and I am glad I listened to that prompting. I don't know how I would have managed the first month of marriage with my pseudotumor and health problems like they were.
So now on our honeymoon we will be celebrating lots of things:
1) Our Marriage
2) The end of our 8 month engagement!
3) My birthday
4) Our 1 year anniversary of knowing each other (and Independence Day)
It will be a great week and I can't wait till we are on our honeymoon and away from my general daily worries! I have realized with my wedding that it doesn't matter if I lose weight or not (because every bride wants to), it doesn't matter if everything appears to be perfect... All that matters is that I am committing my life and love to Daniel and he is committing his life and love to me!
12 Days to Go
I am not nervous for one second to marry Daniel! I am not nervous about our future or our ability to live together and love each other everyday! I am however nervous for wedding itself. Its not going to be perfect, something will happen and hopefully for the most part it will go by and be an enjoyable couple of days!
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
4 Dollar Walmart Find
Ok I usually don't "brag" about a 4 dollar walmart find... It makes me feel kinda like a "crazy" or something but who is to say I'm not...
Anyway, if you are at all like me you will appreciate this! I have had this ring for almost 9 months now and because of my own choosing the ring is not a thin band, its a very thick wide band that shows off every scratch and scuff and dirt mark... I have not been able to find a great way to clean my ring, even though know I know they are out there. I was going to breakdown and buy whatever they sell at my jewelers in some big bottle to clean my ring but while in Walmart I mentioned this "problem" to my roommate Mary and her being a connoisseur of jewelry recommended this 4 dollar cloth!
To my brilliant surprise it shined my ring up better than anything else, it was quick, fast, cheap and no mess!
This is my rant for today!
Anyway, if you are at all like me you will appreciate this! I have had this ring for almost 9 months now and because of my own choosing the ring is not a thin band, its a very thick wide band that shows off every scratch and scuff and dirt mark... I have not been able to find a great way to clean my ring, even though know I know they are out there. I was going to breakdown and buy whatever they sell at my jewelers in some big bottle to clean my ring but while in Walmart I mentioned this "problem" to my roommate Mary and her being a connoisseur of jewelry recommended this 4 dollar cloth!
To my brilliant surprise it shined my ring up better than anything else, it was quick, fast, cheap and no mess!This is my rant for today!
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