Sunday, December 29, 2013

2013 Review


2013
January: 
We rung in the New Year with this cute girl! And had LOTS of snow days! Aunt Lisa came to visit at the end of the month from Korea.
 
February: 
Ava had her second set of tubes put in her ears and her adenoids removed the beginning of February.

March: 
Miss Ava turned THREE! Ava and I went to Disney on Ice together, so much fun! Easter was also in March this year.

April: 
Ava had her sedated hearing evaluation at Primary Childrens Hospital in April. They were wanting to check if her hearing was affecting her speech. After a long day we found out her hearing was 100% okay. Ava and I also went to the Zoo this month as well as the tulip festival and the dinosaur museum at Thanksgiving Point.
 
 
May: 
At the end of May Ava and I traveled to Arizona while Dan went to the Indy 500 :)
June: 
We came back from Arizona and spent as much time as possible swimming! We attempted swim lessons. This was the straw the broke the camels back that made me finally take our pediatricians referral to the developmental pediatrician to get Ava checked out. She was not even functioning at the swim lesson class, it was like another child standing (or rather running and screaming) in front of me and she was the oldest in the group. This was the one picture of her in the water happy for 1 second.  I turned 27 :)

July: 
July 3rd we met with the Developmental Pediatrician in Salt Lake for Ava's first evaluation. This is when we were first told that Ava possibly had Autism. It came as a huge (not) surprise to me. I had suspected that much but hadn't said anything to anyone about it, including Dan. We began working with the school district to get her evaluated for preschool services.
August: 
We found out that Ava was approved for Special Education Preschool services 3 days a week including Speech, Physical & Occupational therapy.  She started school and the very last week of August we received her official mild-moderate Autism diagnosis.
 
September: 
Ava had a hard first couple of weeks of school but she quickly started to fall into the routine and loving it! Made us so happy that she was loving school! Dan, Ava and I went to the Utah state fair and Dan turned 27! 

October: 
We did a lot of our favorite Fall activities, pumpkin patch, corn bellys, the thanksgiving point farm! Ava was going to be Tinkerbell for Halloween till she let me know the day before that she wanted to be Cinderella! It was such beauty to my ears to here my little girl express something she wanted that I couldn't resist making her request a reality! 

November: 
Ava had her pictures taken by Lubby Dubby Photography! I absolutely adore them! Ava's speech therapy continued to help her and make a HUGE difference in our little girl! We celebrated Thanksgiving with Mark and Kathy. 

December:  
Celebrated this little girls 4th Christmas! Our first Christmas opening presents just the 3 of us at our home!  
 
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This last year did not turn out how I had hoped or expected, it ended up being one of the hardest years yet. It taught me that whats really important is that our little family is together and happy. I'm forever grateful that I have my two favorite people by my side still and pray we can continue to grow as a family, not in numbers alone but in strength, closeness and love.
I'm hoping we can make big changes in 2014, these hopes and dreams are almost identical to what I wrote last year but it still rings true. We are planning on making improvements in our health, losing weight, moving out of our condo, making more dents in our debt, and our continued goal of adding to our family. 

As much as I LOVE my work, my honest goal this year is to focus more on our little family of 3 and enjoying the most of everyday with Ava and Dan. For me that means taking a break from work for a while!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Grateful

Every new years I envision how my year will go, set goals, make wishes... by thanksgiving I can admit its usually been a pretty hard year. Well this year was no exception. We went through some of the hardest things of our marriage this year.. the last year and a half have been at times down right painful.

One blessing that come with trials is they amplify how wonderful our blessings actually are. So this is to remind myself that despite the pain we have experienced there are still things to be so grateful for!
I'm am incredibly grateful that despite our less than ideal weight that we have overall health and are aiming for increased health.


I am grateful for everything that lead us to getting Ava into school and therapy, including her Autism diagnosis. I won't lie, there are still days I try to ignore/convince myself that she does not have autism... I still haven't fully come to terms with it, however I am so grateful for her teachers and therapists and the incredible change we have seen in her! It is such a miracle to be able to hear Ava say things, ask questions, make friends, follow directions!
I am grateful that I have Dan and Ava. They are the two greatest things in my life.

I'm grateful that despite the pain that 3 years of infertility have brought, I can still find joy in being a mom of 1. I enjoy my time with Ava, all of it. She is a miracle and I know what a rare and precious gift she is! Infertility has shown me to really not worry about the little things with her. If she doesn't want to eat a vegetable at dinner or wants to wear solely dress up clothes for a week... that's just fine.
I don't feel exhausted at being a mom (lots of other things exhaust me but I never tire of my role as mom), I don't want a break from her, I don't feel the urge to complain about her, ever. If she wakes up in the middle of the night, I'm not upset by lack of sleep, I'm happy to get a chance to help her with whatever she needs. I am grateful for the good and the bad because it means I'm her mom, which is the greatest blessing of all. I am grateful that I am able to be the best mom possible to Ava.

I'm grateful that if we ever are able to have a second child that Ava will be able to actually understand and be excited about having a baby brother or sister. As time goes on I can see great advantages in having 5+ year age difference rather than my original plan of having 3 children in 4 years.

Friday, November 8, 2013