I find it hard to put into words how much I love Ava. Every time I listen to the song "the luckiest" by Ben Folds, my heart gets full because that's how I feel about Ava (even though technically I know he didn't write that about his child).
I feel like I have made so many many mistakes in my life and somehow everything I've done has brought me to this moment. This moment where I'm a mom and Ava is my everything. I am the luckiest. I'm thankful for every mistake, every tear, every hardship I've had to face. Everything I've had to go through growing up has shaped me into a better person, for her.
This Mother's day I'm so thankful for my mom and for my future little mommy, Ava. I know she came first in our family for a reason. She loves other children and she already acts like a little mom at 1. I can't wait till she's a big sister.
My Second Mother's Day: 
Today should be a day to celebrate my little Ava for making me a Mom. It has been exactly 2 years since we decided we wanted to start trying for a baby. I remember coming home from church on Mother's Day crying and devastated that I had been recently told that I A) shouldn't get pregnant and B) probably couldn't get pregnant. Within the week after mother's day we decided that we weren't going to go along with what the doctors were telling us and that was the best decision of our lives! I pray for the day that we will be able to get pregnant again and although its not as 'easy' as it was last time I know our next child will be worth the wait.
